It's Important to Have Supportive Friends When Your Family Is Not: Somebuddy's Story
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A letter from an anonymous person to her friends:
Dearest friends,
Let me begin by saying "thank you". I am very grateful to have you as part of our barkada. Our friendship can't be what it is without each of you.
I don't know how you will react to this message. Probably you may think I'm just doing this because I'm bored and need some attention, but no I'm not. The thought of sending a letter for you was when I was feeling alone and lonely (way back in 2016, but karon pa na materialize and I don't know why). Back when we were in high school, I remembered how much my bad mood changed when you were there talking about funny stuff to attract good vibes. I'm not sure if you were aware of my story, but allow me to share it with you.
I was bullied when I was just a little ugly child. That's one of the reasons I was boyish back then. I have many traumatic experiences in my childhood days. That includes my near-death experience when I was five that caused a long term deficiency to my brain. I was called "adopted" by my sister for many years. That kept lingering in my brain that I almost believed in it and I almost run away. I was once a battered child too. My parents put many deep scars not only on my skin (mostly on my legs, the reason I don't wear dresses that shows my bare legs) but also in my heart. When I was in college, my family was in a big crisis wherein my parents were about to break up. Thank God we're still complete. My father probably realized that his decisions will not cause any good to him (because we know it was his fault and we'll never side on him as grown-ups)
After my graduation, I changed my mind and don't want to continue putting up my business. I want to work in a BPO Company at Cebu/Davao (as CSR commonly known as Call Center Agent) where I was recommended (by a college friend), but unfortunately, my father stopped me. I thought I would die that day because he was filled with anger (di na daw ko niya ilhon nga anak niya if pilion nako maging CSR) that he was about to choke me. All I did was pray as I saw his red face. Thankfully my mother was there to stop what he's about to do. That was one of the worst experience in my life that I questioned God for giving me a second life. I wished he did not bring me back to life during the day I fall from that Manzanita tree (to the roof and fall again to the ground with many coconut shells) when I was five years old (or older). That day, I realized I don't have freedom. I cannot do what I want, and I have accepted that fact. I chose to be happy being with my family and respect their decisions for me.
I want to hang out with you often but I'm sorry if I can't. I apologize for all the broken promises and please forgive me for all my lapses.
I always thank God for having friends like you. I always pray for your success in all aspects of your life. I may not be there for you physically but you're always in my heart and mind. If you need anything, I will definitely do my best to help ("wag mahihiyang magtanong kung may"...√😅 a joke only Filipinos of my age can relate).
Salamat kaayo sa paghatag ug kalipay sa ako when I was at my lowest in high school. Weak kaayo ko (emotionally and spiritually) during those years but I'm hiding my weaknesses. Salamat kaayo sa care, respect, love? nga gihatag/gipakita ninyo sa ako. I highly appreciate everything you've done for me. I became stronger, wiser and grateful because you are one of those who showed me the reasons why I should not give up.
Daghang salamat. Mwahugs😉 (wink)
Love,
👧 (another girl's emoticon)
